MTC Entry Day

This was my diary entry for August 15,2012. The day Chris went to the MTC!!! Today is  the day Elder Wolf went to the MTC! It was a hard day. Even though the night before he was ordained an Elder, which I was privileged to attend! During the ordination it was really awesome because instead of feeling sad or depressed I felt so peaceful and excited after it was over and so did he. Which I really think I needed because other wise I would have been a basket case :) Before he went in  to the MTC we got to visit for a little, it was good and I will treasure it for the next two years! We just talked about the record  cereal consumption at the MTC and having him separate the darks and whites when doing laundry.Just silly small talk topics. One thing that Elder Wolf and I did was we wrote letters to each other and said our real good byes and some important promises we where going to keep. We figured that  we  couldnt remain calm and  not brake down while saying them which worked for us. It made the good byes a lot easier because it was more light hearted and not so serious , granted we did cry a bit. Chris and I  got to say the serious stuff in the letters and that was important to us. Now that he is a Missionary serving the Lord  24/7 I know he will get so many wonderful blessings that will be countless! Elder Wolf will have so many opportunities to change people's life and even his own when he is focusing on the work. I personally just have to remember all of those things when I am feeling lonely or sad becaus he is where he needs to be and doing what he needs to be doing. But as this huge change happened in both of our lives the day did go on and this is how mine went... I was scheduled to work 3pm-1am and I came in to work about a half our early and just started working. Oh and FYI Chris and I worked at the same place for a year and I just got promoted to manager two months before he left so my crew members know Chris and still talk about him. Anyways, I was working and a cook asked me why I was here so early I replied that I just wanted to come in and I guess something in my eyes changed because she gave me a puzzled look and asked " oh Chris left today didn't he?" and I could feel my lips quiver( more like my whole body)  for a second and just started bursting out crying.  And she kept apologizing over and over even though I told her it was perfectly fine and I didn't mean to react that way.the rest of the night about how normal my ob can be.  I would catch myself looking at the clock and thinking "Oh he is eating dinner"  five minutes later " Yup, still eating dinner... I hope he isn't over eating or getting gassy". Few hours later..."He is probably getting ready for bed, I really hope he wears his old man pj's and flosses" and so on.Work is over right now and I sprayed some of my Elder's cologne with only watery eyes, it's a huge step up from earlier today!  Today is one of the first days of our next two years I forgot to mention earlier, the hardest thing that happened today was when I was driving away from Chris's house one of our songs was on the radio and I started balwing :( so sad!!