Conference

Is so crazy that every time I know exactly what I am going to do in the future with my life Heavenly Father ALWAYS shakes it up and makes me realize what really is important in life.
 
For months I have been praying about a mission. In early September I prayed really sincerely about it for the first time. The following night I went with my friend to Park City to spend the night. In downtown Park City there is a visitor center called the Family Tree or something along those lines. Where you learn about Genealogy and hopefully more about the church. There I met a Sister Missionary (before this time I had never met a Young Sister missionary) she talked to me about serving. Something she said really stuck out to me “the Lord needs Sisters". The next day was Sunday and my friend and I went to a local singles ward. It’s fast Sunday and a Sister stood up and bore her testimony about sister missionaries and shared some experiences about her mission to Greece. Something she said stood out to me “the Lord needs Sisters". Later that evening I went to this elderly missionary’s house to have dinner. We helped them teach the first lesson to this boy we told about the church about the previous night. On the  following Monday I was helping my friend move into her new apartment. The girl moving out of the room was telling us about her mission to temple square. Something she said stood out to me “the Lord needs Sisters" she also said “if you go you won't regret it but if you. If you don't go you will always regret it". The next day, Tuesday, came and two sister missionaries came into work and where telling me about their experiences. Mind you before that Saturday I had never met a sister missionary. I think my prayer was answered ;)

In the next letter I wrote to my Missionary I told him that I had prayed about going on a mission.  This was at the very beginning to September. He was understandably cautious. He said “concerning that mission-thing you told me about. Well, I guess it would be a priceless. It would benefit our relationship, if I don't go crazy first. Or have my heart melt. I don't know if I can let you go." He also said that my answers could be toward going on a mission when all my kids are out of the house. Naturally, this made me apprehensive about going. Chris and I have always talked about me going on a mission. The only big arguments we have had in almost 4 years of dating where about him going on a mission and me going on a mission. I hope he is excited about it now because he would be gone also!
 
When conference came around I asked Chris what his questions where. He said one of them was “If I should let you go on a mission or snatch you up and marry you". My question was the same.
 
So I am watching conference and I hear the announcement and I start bawling and freaking out. President Monson shouldn't expect me to be able to concentrate when the Lord answers my conference question within literally 10 minutes! Especially when it is a huge answer! You can say I am kinda excited for this next letter!

I know I received these answers and confirmations about going on a mission weeks before so when the announcement was made I could be ready and prepared. It’s so funny because a few weeks before conference my friend and I had decided that we would start studying Preach my Gospel.   Looking back I have no idea why I would get a prompting about praying whether I should serve a mission. I am 19 and you go when you are 21. It’s actually crazy. Now I know the Lord was just preparing me for the news that would be announced.

 
 I have no idea how I am going to do a mission. Or how I am going to tell my parents. All I know is that when the Lord answers my prayers I will listen. I think I need to buy some more suitcases!

 

 

 

This is a quote the Wolf’s have on their fridge, I have in my room  and Elder Wolf  has it on is wall in the MTC!

 

wedding bells

 

 

I have mentioned before a lot of my friends are getting married. So it’s easy to say that I have had wedding on the brain. Let’s face it it’s Utah. Everyone my age is getting engaged or married. This sucks for me. But even if Chris did not to go on a mission I still don’t think I would get married at 19…20 or even 21. Chris and I are waiting to get married until we are both done with school. We are trying to be responsible and realistic about marriage and what it entails. It’s not just about putting a ring on your left ring finger. There is a ton of responsibility and choices to be made. We have to pay bills. Decide where to live. Have decent jobs. We have to provide for ourselves which requires tons of saving and planning. Don’t get me wrong I would love to marry Chris within months of when he gets back but I am afraid it’s not realistic. Plus he has to adjust back into normal life. That would be super hard if all of a sudden he is a husband. Marriage seems scary and I am afraid of going into it too soon. I am 300% sure I have the right guy; I just want to make sure everything else is 300%.

 

I am so glad that we both feel this way and we have talked about it a ton. You only get married once and we are not worried about the person we are marring but basically everything else. I am just glad I don’t have to think about that stuff for a while. Though it’s hard with wedding announcements coming out every week.

 

 

 

School Post

School is going well! I am learning tons of new information and hopefully I am improving!
Right now I am doing my first semester baking and cooking classes. Baking is ok. I LOVE my hot foods class :) if I do say so myself I am doing awesome! I miss being able to talk shop with Chris, hahaha! It's not quite the same through letters.

None the less, time is going by. In a letter Chris wrote that “the days are long but the weeks are short" which is EXACTLY how I feel. The beginning of my weeks are horribly terribly long and the other days are just long.

Just a random post about the thing that takes up a lot of my time
 

 

 

This is the Challah bread wreath I made!

Challah is a traditional celebratory sweet Jewish bread.

Obviously I am proud of it because I took a picture of me with it!

 

This is a traditional bread from Europe it’s called Gibassier,  it is kind of like a black licorice doughnut

 

 

 

 

I practically had a heart attack when I saw this! See the little writing on the right side that says “Bake Shop”? That’s Chris’s handwriting! He must have done that last year when he did the Baking class <3

 

50 days

50 days in?! Is this a joke? I am this far in? Time has gone by so fast, but it feels like I saw him months ago. Not just 50 days ago? I have school and work to thank for making time fly. I also should thank Chris for his prayers. In almost every letter he says he prays for time to go by fast for me. His prayers plus mine are definitely doing the trick.

It also helps a boat load when I hear “My companion and I get along the best out of anyone... We are the only companionship that doesn't argue" and " only two years to do it, a life time to benefit from it" or my favorite " I am so grateful for Heavenly Father, He has always been there for me, no matter what. Though the good, the bad and the ugly. I am not by any means perfect. I have made so many mistakes; I have hurt Him by them. But He is patient, merciful and compassionate. He's always forgiving, humble and always gives me hope."

Just from the past 50 days I can confidently say that they choice he made to go was the perfect choice for him and us.

It's so easy to look at someone else's relationship and see what they are doing wrong and what they are doing right. It’s hard to look introspectively at your own and track the progress... right now I fell like my relationship is growing stronger with Chris. I know as of now I CAN track my progress. As I have been thinking about it I realize that it's because we both are leaning more on the Lord as time passes.

A lot of our friends are getting married, I am happy for them, slightly jealous and kinda sad. All of them have been married outside of the temple and have passed missions. They say that it is right for them and I trust them, I sincerely do. Everyone has different paths in life and they are rarely what we expect. But it makes me super happy to hear the friends that are getting married in the temple.

I am adjusting to life and filling in my time with things to occupy time. Trying to imitate normalcy is no longer a thing I have to concentrate on, it’s natural! I occupy my time with school, work, crafty projects, going to the gym, homework and being with friends.


This post is all over the place! A lot of random information :)

Oh and P.S today I normally get a letter at 12:30 in the afternoon but today it didn’t come in time for me to read it before school… I am practically having a heart attack.